in between screwdriver and shirley temple

went for j's shoot... quite alrite... had a post shoot party... j was makin drinks for everyone... god knows wat i had... was sipping everyone's drinks.. so i was drink hopping from martinis to tequilas to whisky to gin and tonic to melon liquer to screwdrivers to cranberry bacardi... did haf vodka since had it two days ago at joel's house... so i had two glasses of the melon liquer wif sprite, and one cranberry bacardi... still dun like it bitter.... tried snowball too... but not so nice... i'm still sober...can walk straight and all... tried a sip of a shot(i tink it was mexican tequila or martini...) but too bitter for me... haha... so oh well, now i'm home...

learnt tat asians are not tat tolerant of the wheat substance... so tats y our faces get red easier than caucasians... since their diet is based on wheat, while ours is rice... discussed abt arabian gals, den went to a bit of religion, den eunuch to androgyny... den to a bit of malay gal sayin sumthin and doin a whole different thing, figures... haha... quite interesting la...

had pizzas and potato chips, and bee hoon... i jus realised tat todae i drank a bit of sprite, a cup of coffee, and the rest, jus drinks made by j...

i noe i wanted to write loads of stuff on my way home... but kinda forgot abt it... sighs... oh well, shall write it down as i remember them... oh well, tomz, might be eatin pringles... haha...

photographs....
wat do they mean... sure they mean different things to different people, but to me, itz a cut out slice of reality... sumthin which will never happen again, is captured by photography(writing using light)... so sure, arguments will say itz not a real experience, but a fake one since we do not experience everything, i see it more as a memorabilia, sumthin which i did, sumthin which i will not remember every details since i'm too engrossed in my own world of being... it brings me back to an objective view of events as it happens... sure, we can always distort the picture, but wat u remember of the picture is most important...

thank god i'm not allergic to every mushroom... ate button mushrooms jus now, jus for the hell of learning if i'm allergic to all mushrooms, and so it seems i'm not... well, at least i'm not vomitting a few hours later... phew... haha...

flooding through the floodgates

came late for my media law lecture... haiz... shld get up earlier the next time... got back my result... woo hoooooo... got 28/40... not a lot la, but considerin a lot failed, quite good le... haha...

my digi slr's autofocus died on me on wednesday... so sad... i dreamt tat it suddenly cld work after me tryin it... den woke up to watch chelsea against barca... quite fun la the second half... seein chelsea bein bombarded like siao... never seen a game so dominated... esp if they are both good teams...

got a shoot later on sat... so must wake up early... not much to say... been in emo/angsty mood for the past few days... sighs... but never got down to writing it... i dunno... things haf started to evolve... may not really be for the better... dangerous liasons... though not as if anythin happened...
so wats the point... i'm stuck in a life where i do crazy stuff... thing i never tot i will do when i was younger... noe how ur perception changes as u grow...

how innocent we all were... accidentally saying words we dun mean, the other person taking it the wrong way...den shit happens... sure, it happens even till we grow up... but sumtimes, we wonder how come we lose a friend's trust jus once, and some jus won't let go of that hatred, no matter how minute and how it doesn't really matter in ut life... yet, speakin or hearing the name of the person conjures images of unknown or minute reason for hatred, yet the feeling of hate grows wifout reason, fueled by the reason tat we jus hate that person... soon it becomes like the capulets and montagues... fighting over a sumthin they know not of....

sheeshed

friday - 18th feb
went to skol late... cldn't wake up from all the late nites tat i had... went to watch the chingay preview... whee... since i was gonna play soccer on sat, i jus watched the preview... all i can say is tat i dun mind the commercialism.. i mean, quite fun la to see stuff on floats... wat i cldn't stand was the performance in which on the 'seated guest' gets to see... and everyone else was jus watchin ... and itz not even full for the preview... might as well jus open up wat... and how the hell are we supposed to get the tickets anyway?? so anyways, i tink i had a tiny lil crush on one of the cheerleaders rite in front of me... haha... oh well... didn't bother to do anythin... though ere was tis one chance... haha... i was in a not really bothered mood... before tat, was in a pissed off at sumthin mood... ate wif sri and ian... den got better... so anyways, god knows when i'm goin to edit the pictures... haha... i'm still piling up on unedited pictures... arrghhhhhh... ere's the inhabitants, week 3 of live and loud at thumper, the NUS international day, now chingay... tats like wat? 900 pictures or more... still unedited... haiz...

sat...19th feb
went to skol for a meetin... den went to TAPAC to show my sound bites for the production of mentah... went to play soccer after that... whee... though lost like 6/5 - 2, i kinda am okie wif the game... though i jus realised i didnt save any direct shot on goal, which kinda sucks... and i mean the nice shots on goal... like sum rollin ball dun count la... they either shoot over the bar or jus wack rite in front of goal... got knocked down for a few minutes as i was stretching to catch one cross... haha... now my neck hurts... haha... okie la... 2 goals, i got my feet to touch the ball before it entered the goal... not enuff stretch ere... and a bit slow on reaction time... i was playin on a team wif abt 8 players over 30... and started the game wif only 9 men... i was the youngest,... and the next age was abt 24 or 25... and it progresses up... so i tink ere was like only 3-4 players under 28... and we palyed against a bunch of 20 plus guys who runs like crazy... though the goalie on the other side didnt save any shot directed at him... he only caught rolling balls... oh well...

so todae read a friend of 8mth's blog... our sms to each other dwindled to once or twice each mth,... when it used to be sms everydae... and how we never met anymore... i guess i didnt haf recordings anymore on friday nite... and how u always tell me no need and stuff and how i always tell u itz okie since i'll be on my way... i guess i cldn't make any more excuse to meet ya after ur work... i dunno, well, i'll admit... itz not really on the way... but itz nice to haf company from ur skol to woodlands(wif sri and the rest of comic strip members who live in the north)... and from woodlands to sengkang... and since i stopped recordings, i dunno, always goin home early... never stayin late at nite in skol... ere were times when i tot of meetin ya after work... i dunno... well, u noe how we always sms each other... and either one of us will sms the other... i dunno... after the singapore idol nite, i tried to continue smsing... but u never initiated it anymore like u used to... den, well, things start to change from tat day onwards... miscomm i guess, but u noe how sumtimes innocent actions can be read as subtle-ties... like when u dun msg anymore, i take it ppl dun really want to sms anymore... communication is a two way process... once it becomes one way, i guess, itz on the verge of breakdown... and i dun mean not replying... one way refers to not initiating...

haha... now tat i said these, lets go on a side track story... haha...
u noe how sumtimes, when u start everything, and the other person dun help in makin decisions... it starts to get irritating... unless u are the type of person who likes to control everything and dominate everything... den itz one way... i mean, if u live alone, den fine by me... but if u must interact wif another person, one way stuff will only lead to irritation... either by the initiator or the agree-er...

so back to the main story...
i guess itz nice to read tat sumone still remembers ya... *sentimental me comin rite up* and itz nice to read abt urself... hahaha... i guess i never really said u were great company... well, maybe i did say it... but jus in case i didnt... and we got along fine wif each other's quirks... haha... at least i got along fine wif urs... and how we sumhow cld guess wat the other person thinks... or so we claim... haha... oh yea, and u're not fat... *since i'm online, itz safer to say tis*, u're not fat... not yet at least... hahaha... and do remember, if u tink u're fat, den i'm huge... hope ya haven't been too mean to ppl... *grins*(havent used *grins* for a long time... till recently)....

waitin for a heart scan

thursday - 17.2.05

went for my medical check up jus now again... in the end, i jus collected another referal letter to go to alexandra hospital to go for a sumthin called 2-D echo scan i tink... sum deviation thingy abt the heart... haiz... oh well, so tat means, i get deferred for a bit longer cos the appointment is on the 28th of april... oh well, so went home after that to sleep!!! since i lacked it... den woke up to go to NUS for ave's show... met lin at buona vista first... den we boarded the wrong bus(kind of... it brought us to the place... jus tat we had to travel longer...) watched the show... den as i was startin to take pictures, guy from NUS's video and photograpghy committee, kevin, asked if i was coverin the event too and if i'll be stayin longer... oh well, so my pics will go to them too... whee... ate chicken sandwich at tis place at yusoff hall or sumthin like tat... forgot the place's name...

arrggghhh... i guess i will jus be friends wif liza... after monday's incident, i guess, i dunno... if ppl cant get over others first, den no use... arrghhh....

tis dun really speak abt her but in general, if ppl cant get over anythin/anyone yet, and they try to fil up that void with another thing/person, sumwhere along the way, the large void tat was covered will be converted to pain... intense unadulterated pain... one day or the other... i dunno... i guess for me, sure, i do tat all the time... but the main thing was that nuthin intense was felt because nothin intense was shared in the first place... so sum exceptions here...

i dunno, i guess my title for todae is quite apt... both literally and metaphorically... i guess i need to do a heart scan... even if itz the 2D echo... learn how the heart works... or at least how my heart works... i'm sure i'll see loads of gaps and torn pieces, sum chewed up but not tearin yet... yet, ever healing, ever pumping blood through the veins... ever pumping love through the body...

post V recordings

before thumper started, went to watch racing stripes wif lin... so caught the 5 plus show... so tat we can make it for the gig later... after the show, went straight to thumper... den wanted to eat first... den heard sum bands playing... so she called ros to ask if it was them or not... entered thumper in the end and ate later... fat skunks were really good!! ate at antolio(or was it antonia?)... so anyways, had late supper as usual... (the first of many no sleep nites)... went to KTM to smoke sheesha... had the lime and apple mint tat nite... can i say i was kinda lovin the high feeling?? the one u get after u smoked it and leave it in ur lungs and a few seconds later, ur head feels heavy... and den suddenly it feels light... yea... it was great... however damaging it was to my body... haha...

so the next day, went to duck's house... before meetin azim to go to johore... drove to her house...ate rice, ayam masak merah(chicken cooked in red... haha... dumb translation... chicken cooked in chili rather) and the oyster mushrooms... aarrghhhh.... i jus learnt i'm allergic to tat mushrooms... though i was eatin them since i was young... den i stopped... and now, i'm allergic to it.. ma stomach jus cant digest them... so it pukes them out... after 3 to 4 hours of eating them... haiz.... so drove to malaysia... den when we reached malaysia, or rather the eatin place, i got the same feelin tat i got when i was jus abt to puke...(which was not long ago).... so i went to spend quality time with the toilet bowl and we became quite good friends... while duck and azim were eatin, i was throwing up on all the food... strange thing is tat, i only saw the rice... didnt see the chicken le... do we digest chicken faster than rice? haha... so anyways, yea, didnt get to smoke sheesha at malaysia... meet rudy and her family at the eatin place while i was abt to puke... had time to chat wif her for a while... before rushing to go to the loo... so basically i wasted my trip to malaysia... haiz.... den went to beats merchant studios(i tink tats the name)... went to take photos for Rafe... met endra ere... havent seen tat guy for a long time... so after the photo shoot... ate a bit at al majlis... den went to juan's place since i had skol the next day at 9 and awie was stayin over too.. so jus bunked ere too... they didn't sleep till abt 5 or 6 am... i slept at abt 4 am...den woke up and edited a bit of the photos... den slept back...

woke at abt 8.30... went to heng han's class... so den was like dammm sleepy all thru his class... den went to mix i tink... yea, we kinda mixed the song... though i dun remember tat session... haha... so went home... slept early... woke up at 10am... cldn't sleep longer for sum weird reason... den chatted wif lyza till we both had to leave for our respective gig tat we had to attend... turns out, i left my home abt 3.30 ...haha... she left abt 2.45 like tat... god knows what i was doin tat kept me from goin tat early... woots... turns out, i had to do the sound... i must say... was really not expecting to get such a nice opportunity... though could haf done better if i had more time... since i came late... if i knew earlier, wld haf come earlier to do more stuff, and a bit more properly... it was a haphazard work by my standards... so ere i was, doin sound for DYL's Inhabitant... my cables were jus running all over, sikit tak handsome... haha... had jus enuff cables and channels since my mixer got sumthin wrong... so only one mixer was available... started the sound check late... dam paiseh la... so anyways, had a very good floor crew... ROS, KC, MUDZ... thanks to joel for takin over me for the sound check while i go eat my dinner... in which i didn't noe he was supposed to help me till a bit later... haha... so anyways, the show went quite well... minus few feedback while trying to get the vocals to be heard... sorrie goes out to lin... accidentally & unconsciously turning the highs all the way down... and i swear i dun even remember turining it down, especially when it was okie jus before she started singing... haiz... i was mesmerised by arpee's singing... forgot wats her name... haha... quite nice le... anyways, said hi to benita(or was it bonita)... she only remembered me as meetin at thumper... minus the fact i met her like a few days ago, on new year's eve... and to tink i was sittin next to her durin the meetin for the cambodia trip briefing... didnt really tot it was her until she shouted mass comm durin the show... and i was like, tat has to be her.... the DYL crew went crazy after the gig... started singing on our own and wat else it was... so went to fong seng(is tat how u spell it???)... but it was full, so went to south buona vista instead... stayed ere till abt 4plus am again... so lack of sleep a big issue here...

on sunday, went to print the poster at the last minute for DPM... finally managed to find a place at peninsular shopping centre... opp penin plaza... tried to find a nice pink box and white ribbon... didnt find the pink box though... but bought a purple envelope and patterned paper... lilac i tink.. den went to develop sum pictures.... so den went to ben's place to watch the DYL videos... had pizzas after tat... while the guys watched soccer... man U Vs Man city... and ate pizzas... i had too much.... six slices of the large pizzas... den left early so tat can pick up my last time baby sitter... ma parent's comin back tat nite... or rather at abt 6 am... since her sis was comin back at abt 3 plus, i promised her tat i'll pick her up at 2.30 am la... haha... turns out i woke up at 2.30 am... so yea, a bit late... hee... when i reached my house, my parents called me to say tat they are already at the airport and haf exited the gate... and tat was like 3 am... and so yea, went to the airport... thankful tat i did pick up my baby sitter... so yea... had sum trouble fitting everythin into the car... since it was damm full anyway... so drove home as i was stoned... cldn't take it sia...

woke up a bit late for class... did my presentation and den went to find books on live sound in the library since was meetin liza ere anyways... since she was doin work wif sharifah, didnt want to disturb them... so stayed up at the 5th storey to read abt live sound and watever book ere was... found it... whee... so den, went for class... and den went to west coast to eat the rojak ere... after that, we went to suntec to buy a journal for herself... a pink one wif a large heart stickin out from the cover... den sent her home... turns out it was abt 6 plus... and tot of goin home... den tot abt the jam... didnt want to be stuck in a jam and spend v nite wif the road... so decided to msg lyza and asked her if she wanted to haf dinner... so picked her up at her house... den went to far east to eat dinner... got lost while trying to get to her house... haha... havin had enuff experience wif ppl who say left and points to the right, i kept askin her if she was sure itz left or right... hahaha.. so yea, talked loads of crap as she put it... and all these while we were eatin... haha... and these were all unconventional topic at the wrong places... like talkin abt pukin and stuff while eatin and askin out loud y do minahs want to be minahs jus after we walked past a few of them... sheesh... den she wanted to eat ice cream after tat... so went down and she paused to think if itz gonna make her fat or not... bein the nice guy tat i was, i dragged her to the ice cream stall... haf a tendency to make ppl eat sumthin tat they want but wanna keep a watch on their 'weight'... not as if they are fat or anythin... haha... so had ice cream... den sat in front of tangs and people watch... den she saw shida and shouted her name... but only the guy looked back, wonderin who called shida's name... den we continued... she den said sumthin abt tis guy havin nice hair... so i said lets go to haf a closer look... dun ask me y, i jus felt like doin tat... haha... den as we were behind them, she said(albeit a bit too loud) the guy wearing the guitar... the guy didnt turned around thoug... haha... went home... haha... the longest time i ever spent in a roundabout... we like circled it twice before we exited since she didnt noe which exit.... and neither did i... haha... in the end, got the right one... haha... so yea... on my drive back, saw a 3 vehicle collision... missed it la... but saw the after math...

today, missed my media law lecturer cos didnt bother to get out from my bed... i was awake at 6.30 already... den i was like, freak it la... and went back to sleep... so only went for the tutorial...

i tot wrong

i dunno... i still dun feel good even after i blog it out...i dunno... i tink i really like her... wat ever tat we went thru... i dunno... i like her... ere i said it... i liked her... i like her... however i shldn't... i like her... i dunno... i still do... and yet, itz gonna end sum day soon... like in 2 mth's time... den i wldn't see her anymore... unless she initiates it... cos i'll be filled wif my new life in the boy's school... and den it will jus be another episode in my life..... jus another chapter... distillled by my mind and my photographs... i guess tat y photos to me are very important... they distill a part of ur memory so tat u will never forget... they capture wats essential abt tat person.... sumthin to trigger memories... sure, pictures mean nuthin to one person and the world to another.... it is not wat u see... it is wat u have seen...

dammit... sumtimes we hear stories of husband snatchers... i finally begin to understand them... haiz... but i dunno... we're friends... we're jus friends.. i'm jus goin out wif a fwen... jus like goin out wif duck and all the other fwens who are gals... the only diff is tat i like her... i still do... two months i tried to talk myself into not likin her... these past two months haf failed... actually it kinda did work... den like suddenly she msges me to ask me out... and everythin jus fell apart...

i feel better already...

u cant choose who u fall for or how deeply u fall

wat ever it is, i sumtimes wonder to myself... oh well, anyways... history first... present later...

so, took the freakin media law test... haha.. i guess i cld pass it... yeay... thanks AVE!!!! won't haf passed it wifout ur help... hee... so anyways, den rushed home to finish editing the pictures... esp wif ben being extra gabra... tink he called me and msg me a few times to ask abt the photos... haha... trust me ben, i dun break a promise i make... or rather dun make a promise i dun tink i cld keep... haha... so anyways, rushed like siao to finish the pictures... and den... so on friday, rushed to the far east shopping centre to pass the people my edited pictures... first i went ere... so fine... itz still lunch time... so i take it they were out for lunch... bla bla bla... abt 2:10, went back up... and still no one... so called the 'urgent matter' number and den so i talked to tis friendly lady... who told me they are closed todae... and i was like... WTF??!!! u rush me to finsh the dammmnnn pictures... and now u tell me itz closed... okie, i didnt screamed at the lady since she's an innocent party... i mean, okie, if u jus want to rush me... i dun mind... but rush me and den when i'm done, u're not at the rendezvous point...okie, if u're late, i still can tolerate... but not being ere at all and only collectin it a few days later???!!! might as well tell me jus pass them on sat or sunday or stuff...so tat makes me pissed off pronto... after being ramned by a taxi(which was my fault since for a fleeting moment, i cldn't see which lane i was due and went half into his lane... tat 1 i admit was my fault...) so oh well, went to skol to do my specialist project... okies la... didnt do much.... forgot wat i did even... so oh well... anyways...spent the whole of my saturday at home... i dunno... exploring photoshop...

sunday... so went to collect the poster from lin... drove to her ULU house... dam... i tot my house was ulu... hers was even woah... and the winding road was crazy... shite man... had to drive really safely... it was like wat?? 8 sharp bends and all... n 8 is jus a underestimation... sure ere was more... so yea.. went home and opened the file.. and wat happens?? i get the smaller file... arrghhhhhhh.... oh well... haha... so went to try and make the poster quite nice nice... so finally, managed to complete in on monday when inspiration struck while i was half asleep....

so todae, drove to skol... since i finished the poster at abt 9 plus... den ivan called to tell me he is sick... so passed me the soft copy... reached class late... in the end, watched only 2 grps... present... missed the first one... oh well.... so anyways... den met up wif lwati for lunch... ate at canteen two... but met her at the library first... saw tis gal who was in tudung, so jus approached... den her footware was different, her bag was different, she didnt bring her normal water bottle... was abt to go past her when she looked up and it was her... haha... oh well, she borrowed sum books before we headed off to eat... den went for class... got tis new assignment... i was yawning all thru the class... nto tat the lecturer was teaching la... since we had to discuss the grp porject we jus got... everyone was feelin lethargic... (did i spell it correctly??? let me check...) yeay... itz correct... haha... anyways, den me and lwati went to east coast beach for abt an hour plus before we headed back to west coast to eat... so i dunno... wanted to eat the rojak but she didnt want to buy together and i didnt want to buy alone... haha... in the end we didnt buy it... den decided to buy it next monday... i was like, sure... den in the car, i realised tat next mondae is valentine's day... so asked la like isn't she goin out wif her bf.. she told me he's workin... so along the way home... i wondered to myself... wat the hell am i doing?? goin out wif an attached gal on valentine's day?? haiz...i dunno... i dunno anymore wat am i doin... sumtimes i wonder y do i fall for all these attached gals?? though i dunno they are attached... but y do i haf the courage to speak and ask gals out only to find they are attached... y cant i jus ask a girl out and she happens to be single? i really dunno... i guess, at least i'm comfortin myself and tellin myself i didnt ask her out next monday... she was the one who wanted to eat rojak next monday... but still... i guess i did tell her i was kinda uncomfy goin out wif an attached gal... or sumthin to tat effect... she did say she tells her bf tat she goes out wif a fwen.. jus never told him wif a guy... haiyo... i mean, as much as i didnt want her to keep secrets from him, i still am goin out wif her... not as if i'm not guilty either... but wat the hey... u make ur own decisions and i make mine... wrong or right... i dun haf anyone to explain to... except myself...

i dunno, i dun feel good yet at the same time, i feel good... itz like doin sumthin u're not supposed to.. yet enjoying it... haiz... sighs... sighs... sighs... at least i wont be wifout anythin to do on valentine's day... unless my parents comes back early... whee!!!!!!! i hope they do, yet at the same time, i hope they come back at nite... haiz... well, supposed to meet yati on friday...

arrghhh... tomz got media lecture at 8am... wah laio... how to wake up like tat... so used to awkin up at 11am or 12 noon... den next week's thurs, must go back toCPMB cos nee to re check my ecgor sumthin like dat... haiz... stilll hope i get to don the blue uniform...

tis was wat happened between sat and thumper

i tried publishing it but the server for blogspot was down... so here it is....

went for the NUT thingy... met farah while we waited for abt 30 to 45 minutes for dayana... and her lil bro... kinda jus went ard in circles before finally deciding on KFC as out lunch... while we were there, joined by nezar, sri and ian... okie la.. the talk was okie... jus not my course i guess... since got loads of art work to be done... so, anyways, hopefully i get sent to the police instead of SAF or CD... childhood dream come true... haha... always wanted to be a policeman until i was in sec 1 and didnt join NPCC... there, i knew sumthin changed and i was introduced to the world of the stage and haf embraced it till now... so, besides tat, i really really want to go and be a policeman... jus a two year thingy is cool... at least i won't feel so miserable...

monday...
went to meet ivan for our DPM meeting... arrghhhh... so screwed up we are... den went for rehearsals... in between yati called... felt bad cos forgot tat i promised to send her sum sound stuff by yesterday... but she jus said she jus wanted to talk... strange... tis gal only calls me to tell me she need a favour... hahaha... so yea... talked to her a bit... she asked me out the next day... checked my "full" scheduled... so i guess i can fit meeting her in between 2pm till 11am the next day... hahaha... haiz... still havent stuudied for ma media law shite... well a bit la... reading wifout understanding doesn't count.... not understanding a word at all doesnt help much either...
tues...1.2.04
went to skol to do the CD project... in between received a msg tellin me she cldnt make it... sum accident happened in her skol and she got to haf a emergency meeting... so yea, didnt meet her... stayed in skol till abt 5 plus... i'm tellin u... mac and PC shld jus work hand in hand when it comes to protable hard disk... y cant we jus live in harmony and let the both platform read a common hard disk... such a bitch when u transferred in PC... den u go to a MAC and it tells u it dun understand the hard disk... i'm sure the makers went to the same skol and understood the same language... y cant they jus pass down tat knowledge to their computers???!!!
so yea... got pissed...
went to sengkang library after that... paid my fines... returned a few books... went home to watch any movie i had in my house... turns out it became the Coun of Monte Cristo... quite a story la... went to sleep on the couch cos was too lazy to go back to my room...

wednesday
i'm supposed to be goin to skol todae at 11.. so i guess will be driving there... since i was too lazy to go out earlier... so here i am... writing tis blog... not that ere is much left to say....

...
here i am
puring my heart onto these rooftops
just a ghotst
to the world
that exactly,
exactly what i need
from up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and i'm here to sing
this anthem
of our dying day
...
Anthem of our dying day
'story of the year'

things u shldn't do before an exam

i vaguely remembered monday... even tuesday was a blur...oh, eh, erm... nvm... cant remember... so anyways, wednesday...

Wednesday - 2nd February
live and loud @ thumper was ON!!!
before tat, went to complete the surround project... well, at least itz kinda completed... den went to thumper... hang out wif the guys from DYL... as they did their sound check... i went to study outside.. den got Ave to gif me a revision for my test... so i guess i'm 3/4 prepared... haha
den went to eat at antolio or sumthin like tat... den i got myself a pair of ear plugs... whoo pee... though not so friendly la the ear plugs... den went for the gig... though it didn't start on time cos there was tis Aceh fund raising charity auction going on... so it only started at abt 11pm? yea, well, the auction was quite fun and laughter filled... irene ang was the emcee... or the auctioner... which ever u prefer... there were a few celebs... though didn't know till ben told me who's who... haha... damn i really bad at identifying celebrities... haha... so anyways, i'm still stoned.. so will talk more abt the gig later after my test at 2pm todae... anyways, wasn't really happy at my photos... esp wif only red light available... so quite crappy la... white balanced on blue... so it turns out nice wifout flash... but wif flash, it turns greenish... blue-ish... haiz... so anyways, angelina turned up at abt 10 plus... so yeay, got another photographer to cover me since i had to take people pictures... esp random strangers... so had to leave the gig scene to take the people... though i only started late.. like abt the last band den i got stoned and got brave enuff to ask those ppl... haha... so yea, took only a few... turns out these pictures is goin to be used for a press release thingy for thumper... quite a big thing for a small guy for me in a dark club... if tis turns out rite, woah... haha
so i hope photoshop will be my savior for the lack of light in my shots... anyways, gotta go for the test later todae... shite... hopefully i dun fail it... hahaha... i will pass it... yea rite, esp when i'm stoned still...

dun fall too deep in a shallow pool

went for the NUT thingy... met farah while we waited for abt 30 to 45 minutes for dayana... and her lil bro... kinda jus went ard in circles before finally deciding on KFC as out lunch... while we were there, joined by nezar, sri and ian... okie la.. the talk was okie... jus not my course i guess... since got loads of art work to be done... so, anyways, hopefully i get sent to the police instead of SAF or CD... childhood dream come true... haha... always wanted to be a policeman until i was in sec 1 and didnt join NPCC... there, i knew sumthin changed and i was introduced to the world of the stage and haf embraced it till now... so, besides tat, i really really want to go and be a policeman... jus a two year thingy is cool... at least i won't feel so miserable...

monday...
went to meet ivan for our DPM meeting... arrghhhh... so screwed up we are... den went for rehearsals... in between yati called... felt bad cos forgot tat i promised to send her sum sound stuff by yesterday... but she jus said she jus wanted to talk... strange... tis gal only calls me to tell me she need a favour... hahaha... so yea... talked to her a bit... she asked me out the next day... checked my "full" scheduled... so i guess i can fit meeting her in between 2pm till 11am the next day... hahaha... haiz... still havent stuudied for ma media law shite... well a bit la... reading wifout understanding doesn't count.... not understanding a word at all doesnt help much either...
tues...1.2.04
went to skol to do the CD project... in between received a msg tellin me she cldnt make it... sum accident happened in her skol and she got to haf a emergency meeting... so yea, didnt meet her... stayed in skol till abt 5 plus... i'm tellin u... mac and PC shld jus work hand in hand when it comes to protable hard disk... y cant we jus live in harmony and let the both platform read a common hard disk... such a bitch when u transferred in PC... den u go to a MAC and it tells u it dun understand the hard disk... i'm sure the makers went to the same skol and understood the same language... y cant they jus pass down tat knowledge to their computers???!!!
so yea... got pissed...
went to sengkang library after that... paid my fines... returned a few books... went home to watch any movie i had in my house... turns out it became the Coun of Monte Cristo... quite a story la... went to sleep on the couch cos was too lazy to go back to my room...

wednesday
i'm supposed to be goin to skol todae at 11.. so i guess will be driving there... since i was too lazy to go out earlier... so here i am... writing tis blog... not that ere is much left to say....

...
here i am
puring my heart onto these rooftops
just a ghotst
to the world
that exactly,
exactly what i need
from up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and i'm here to sing
this anthem
of our dying day
...
Anthem of our dying day
'story of the year'

dun fall too deep in a shallow pool

went for the NUT thingy... met farah while we waited for abt 30 to 45 minutes for dayana... and her lil bro... kinda jus went ard in circles before finally deciding on KFC as out lunch... while we were there, joined by nezar, sri and ian... okie la.. the talk was okie... jus not my course i guess... since got loads of art work to be done... so, anyways, hopefully i get sent to the police instead of SAF or CD... childhood dream come true... haha... always wanted to be a policeman until i was in sec 1 and didnt join NPCC... there, i knew sumthin changed and i was introduced to the world of the stage and haf embraced it till now... so, besides tat, i really really want to go and be a policeman... jus a two year thingy is cool... at least i won't feel so miserable...

monday...
went to meet ivan for our DPM meeting... arrghhhh... so screwed up we are... den went for rehearsals... in between yati called... felt bad cos forgot tat i promised to send her sum sound stuff by yesterday... but she jus said she jus wanted to talk... strange... tis gal only calls me to tell me she need a favour... hahaha... so yea... talked to her a bit... she asked me out the next day... checked my "full" scheduled... so i guess i can fit meeting her in between 2pm till 11am the next day... hahaha... haiz... still havent stuudied for ma media law shite... well a bit la... reading wifout understanding doesn't count.... not understanding a word at all doesnt help much either...
tues...1.2.04
went to skol to do the CD project... in between received a msg tellin me she cldnt make it... sum accident happened in her skol and she got to haf a emergency meeting... so yea, didnt meet her... stayed in skol till abt 5 plus... i'm tellin u... mac and PC shld jus work hand in hand when it comes to protable hard disk... y cant we jus live in harmony and let the both platform read a common hard disk... such a bitch when u transferred in PC... den u go to a MAC and it tells u it dun understand the hard disk... i'm sure the makers went to the same skol and understood the same language... y cant they jus pass down tat knowledge to their computers???!!!
so yea... got pissed...
went to sengkang library after that... paid my fines... returned a few books... went home to watch any movie i had in my house... turns out it became the Coun of Monte Cristo... quite a story la... went to sleep on the couch cos was too lazy to go back to my room...

wednesday
i'm supposed to be goin to skol todae at 11.. so i guess will be driving there... since i was too lazy to go out earlier... so here i am... writing tis blog... not that ere is much left to say....

...
here i am
puring my heart onto these rooftops
just a ghotst
to the world
that exactly,
exactly what i need
from up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and i'm here to sing
this anthem
of our dying day
...
Anthem of our dying day
'story of the year'