u cant choose who u fall for or how deeply u fall

wat ever it is, i sumtimes wonder to myself... oh well, anyways... history first... present later...

so, took the freakin media law test... haha.. i guess i cld pass it... yeay... thanks AVE!!!! won't haf passed it wifout ur help... hee... so anyways, den rushed home to finish editing the pictures... esp wif ben being extra gabra... tink he called me and msg me a few times to ask abt the photos... haha... trust me ben, i dun break a promise i make... or rather dun make a promise i dun tink i cld keep... haha... so anyways, rushed like siao to finish the pictures... and den... so on friday, rushed to the far east shopping centre to pass the people my edited pictures... first i went ere... so fine... itz still lunch time... so i take it they were out for lunch... bla bla bla... abt 2:10, went back up... and still no one... so called the 'urgent matter' number and den so i talked to tis friendly lady... who told me they are closed todae... and i was like... WTF??!!! u rush me to finsh the dammmnnn pictures... and now u tell me itz closed... okie, i didnt screamed at the lady since she's an innocent party... i mean, okie, if u jus want to rush me... i dun mind... but rush me and den when i'm done, u're not at the rendezvous point...okie, if u're late, i still can tolerate... but not being ere at all and only collectin it a few days later???!!! might as well tell me jus pass them on sat or sunday or stuff...so tat makes me pissed off pronto... after being ramned by a taxi(which was my fault since for a fleeting moment, i cldn't see which lane i was due and went half into his lane... tat 1 i admit was my fault...) so oh well, went to skol to do my specialist project... okies la... didnt do much.... forgot wat i did even... so oh well... anyways...spent the whole of my saturday at home... i dunno... exploring photoshop...

sunday... so went to collect the poster from lin... drove to her ULU house... dam... i tot my house was ulu... hers was even woah... and the winding road was crazy... shite man... had to drive really safely... it was like wat?? 8 sharp bends and all... n 8 is jus a underestimation... sure ere was more... so yea.. went home and opened the file.. and wat happens?? i get the smaller file... arrghhhhhhh.... oh well... haha... so went to try and make the poster quite nice nice... so finally, managed to complete in on monday when inspiration struck while i was half asleep....

so todae, drove to skol... since i finished the poster at abt 9 plus... den ivan called to tell me he is sick... so passed me the soft copy... reached class late... in the end, watched only 2 grps... present... missed the first one... oh well.... so anyways... den met up wif lwati for lunch... ate at canteen two... but met her at the library first... saw tis gal who was in tudung, so jus approached... den her footware was different, her bag was different, she didnt bring her normal water bottle... was abt to go past her when she looked up and it was her... haha... oh well, she borrowed sum books before we headed off to eat... den went for class... got tis new assignment... i was yawning all thru the class... nto tat the lecturer was teaching la... since we had to discuss the grp porject we jus got... everyone was feelin lethargic... (did i spell it correctly??? let me check...) yeay... itz correct... haha... anyways, den me and lwati went to east coast beach for abt an hour plus before we headed back to west coast to eat... so i dunno... wanted to eat the rojak but she didnt want to buy together and i didnt want to buy alone... haha... in the end we didnt buy it... den decided to buy it next monday... i was like, sure... den in the car, i realised tat next mondae is valentine's day... so asked la like isn't she goin out wif her bf.. she told me he's workin... so along the way home... i wondered to myself... wat the hell am i doing?? goin out wif an attached gal on valentine's day?? haiz...i dunno... i dunno anymore wat am i doin... sumtimes i wonder y do i fall for all these attached gals?? though i dunno they are attached... but y do i haf the courage to speak and ask gals out only to find they are attached... y cant i jus ask a girl out and she happens to be single? i really dunno... i guess, at least i'm comfortin myself and tellin myself i didnt ask her out next monday... she was the one who wanted to eat rojak next monday... but still... i guess i did tell her i was kinda uncomfy goin out wif an attached gal... or sumthin to tat effect... she did say she tells her bf tat she goes out wif a fwen.. jus never told him wif a guy... haiyo... i mean, as much as i didnt want her to keep secrets from him, i still am goin out wif her... not as if i'm not guilty either... but wat the hey... u make ur own decisions and i make mine... wrong or right... i dun haf anyone to explain to... except myself...

i dunno, i dun feel good yet at the same time, i feel good... itz like doin sumthin u're not supposed to.. yet enjoying it... haiz... sighs... sighs... sighs... at least i wont be wifout anythin to do on valentine's day... unless my parents comes back early... whee!!!!!!! i hope they do, yet at the same time, i hope they come back at nite... haiz... well, supposed to meet yati on friday...

arrghhh... tomz got media lecture at 8am... wah laio... how to wake up like tat... so used to awkin up at 11am or 12 noon... den next week's thurs, must go back toCPMB cos nee to re check my ecgor sumthin like dat... haiz... stilll hope i get to don the blue uniform...