i feel like the lilac colour in the rainbow

i went to sri's house to fix her comp... took abt 3 hours to be done.. den there was another meeting at PS... was there the first, considering tat i was already out.. haha.. so yea, met a lil and den went home.. so, now, gotta think of sum location to take their photos now.. hmm... was thinking of like... hmmm.... undergroud and raw... substation's wall comes into mind, the one underpass at marina south... backway alleys? any roads under construction? erm, forested backgrd? it shows rawness and stuff wat... *thinks sum more* hmmm.... anyways, den friday was off to ma recording... completed one song, though still is a lil empty... but itz kinda done.. den managed to record horns for a few other songs... haf to re record the vocals for 'love remains'... den sri transferred the song to the md and when we were abt to reach the last song, wham... the md decides to delete all the songs tat we haf rrecorded and say there was an error and poof, all songs were gone... so there we were re recording it back to md.. in the end, was dam late to meet dila to buke... izad and azhani(i tink tats how itz spelled) was there... so den we all went to banquet at china square or sumthin like tat... den we went home.. went home to collect ma keyboard and off to her place to fix her comp den... in the end, it turned out tat her keyboard was spoilt... though it smelled of can drinks... haha... hmmmm... was eatin kacang puteh and god knows how many cups of rose syrup... den i cycled home... darn taxi dun wait for pedestrian anymore... luckily i stopped at when i saw the darn taxi not even slowin down as was cycling... if i was a rich kid, i wld haf jus pushed ma bike and let him hit ma bike... den claim and shit like tat... but i jus wanted to get home... haha...

itz been a week

okie... so i haven't been updating ma blog... and i kinda forgot wat i did when.. haha... so here's wat i remembered.... fridae - 15th... went to skol for recording.... ended up wif all of us eating at Al-ameen instead... so yea... had ma dinner ere... wif sri, syida, hendra... jus the four of us... it wasn't packed surprisingly... so we sat there for a while and den slacked at woodlands, since shida had a bus there and sri had a train there and i, well, have a bus there too...erm, ya, so anyways, sent them off and after tat, met dila and wanted to return sum books but she msg me and i tot she was already done since she didnt reply to anythin else... so yea... waited and waited... haha... went home... sat - 16th DYL basic theory... went to RP at 9 plus... anyways, nuthin much happenin yet... they were all jus getting prepared... so took a few pic and then the whole malay ppl from RP went to watch a bit of money not enuff while waiting for time to pass... dammm... their library is like they have a tv in the middle of the first floor and they jus use speakers... no headphones... haha... they had a keyboard i tink at one corner... anyways, so yea, den went back to start... the bands playin were mostly unknown... so didn't haf much audience.. most of the previous crew was there wif a few additions.. mostly took photos... darius was there to video the event... quite happenin la.. though the biggest crowd was when scarlet ash played.. den 2nd was i tink was 1410... well, 1410 was a dam good crowd pleaser... when it was all over, we went to mc to haf dinner... and den we started goin on abt DYL and wats gonna happen from then on.. discussed till the wee hours.. me bein the quiet one.. i dunno... i can't really give opinions... i mean, itz a new environment... i'm a retrospect guy... my opinions at the spur of the moment of planning is a bit dimwit.. i mean, hey, i can't even plan wat i'm doin the next day... till the next day comes... *i'm sure at least one person can attest to tat*... i'm no planner... but if u place me in the event tiself, i can go along jus fine... though sumtimes i wish i did tat or tis b4 it started, but i live in carpe diem... and i dun haf wild ideas or anythin, and i stand on the fence for almost everything... always haf done tat... maybe tats y i i cant really decide on anythin... but when i do, itz hard to let go... and i always go for the wrong reason but the wrong reason is always a good one... i haf no noble ideas in helpin out ppl... if i do agree, itz for selfish reasons... but if itz free, den wld it be selfish anymore? i dunno.. but itz always i enter for the wrong reasons but doin good.. so is tat good or bad? is it better than doin bad for the right reasons?? oh well... there, as u can see, i jus demonstrated how my mind kinda works sumtimes.. i tink of wat i did, tink of another and wonder and wonder and dun decide... so how? anyways, went to eat at abt 4 plus at ard middle road wif everyone really tired and wif drooping eyes... me ate chicken murtabak and ancient milo... hahaha... anyways, the dam place overcharges for milo dino.. it was like $3.. and i was like, wat the??!!so anyways, waited for the bus and slept in an uncomfortable way so tat i will not fall asleep all the way... got down the bus and my eyes cldn't open properly... my eyes was dam dry... been wearin the contacts for 1 whole day... so anyways, reached home at abt 8am... went to sleep and woke up at 12 noon... i was like, WAT??!! tossed and turned till abt 1pm and jus gave up... downloaded the pic into ma comp and wasn't in the mood to edit them... so jus left them in ma comp... sri den msg me abt the recordin on mondae and i was like, oh crap... mondae-18th went for ma recording and i tink i jus mixed up tis day's event wif last friday's.... err, so yea... heee tues - 19th dila took her final theory test todae... imagine tat.. and i'm jus abt done and i still haven't taken ma finals yet... haiyo... haha... so anyways, went to meet her after her test and we went to buke at simpang bedok... was a darn cold dae... since it was raining for half the day.. she was smiling after the test... and to say she kept tellin me she wasn't confident... i ate the roti john ere... thuogh it was a tad smaller than wat i remembered it to be... haha... den we went home... fell asleep while waitin for her to msg back... haha... still too tired from sundae i tink... haha... wed - 20th finally came to editin the photos... edited till i was almost done.. left wif pulse ironica only... den went for the meetin wif the dyl team at nite later in which i only knew at 4 plus... well, i wanted to say i cancel everything and went for tat... but lookin at ma schedule, the only thing i had to cancel was spendin more time wif ma pillows and bed... haha... wld haf met earlier la but i told ma parents i'm gonna be at home.. haven't been home for a while... met them at abt 8.40.. it was a meeting for another gig tat we might be doing and another person cldn't complete it cos her skol wldn't allow her to do the gig... mixed feelings abound la... i mean, i dun noe much abt organising events (hell, i cant even organise or plan 2 days from now), but it seem like a grand offer in which we are too small to take... i dunno, personally, wat i learnt in skol, if u haf the money, u can do anything... if u dun, everything becomes a lil tad harder, and u get stretched... but if u're gonna do sumthin tat involves big cash wifout any capital for now, and u get inexperienced ppl to do it, we're jus gonna screw ourselves... in the ass and in the fart (air, if u get the comparison)... and if our air is no good, it gets harder to do other things since the air ard us already kinda stinks... i dunno, the thing abt big events is tat, either u get is done and u climb high really fast, or u jus fall really hard... and yea, ben did bring up the lettin everythin go, which was kinda dancing ard in ma head, but wat if we do smaller things in grand events? i mean, the name is there.. like the next time, oh we did tis at there... i mean, there's a higher negotiating power... if u're askin y i dun say tis all in the meetin, like i said, i cant... i let in sleep in ma head, and write it down... i can't say stuff... i'm more comfy wif written words... so anyways, i mean, bein an arm is quite a good way... but under who now? bein the arm is only as good as the whole body... no use havin the brains tellin the arm to jus scratch the ass and scrotum and put it at the nose... ( ewwwwwwwwwww!!!!!) and we are pressed for time.. i mean, like it or not, money takes frist priority... and in everything else... wif cash, we can make or break... wifout cash, we HAVE to make OR break... i dun remember who said it la... but wif arts, u sumtimes gotta have the business ethics and the arts... i mean, bein an artist first, the dealings is very different if u were to be a business person first... i guess, working wif rosdi taught me tat... or rather he showed me tat... so boss, here's the first entry i ever made of u... haha... i dunno... tats ma few cents worth...

Dirty dancing to the Prince and me

Tuesdae - 12th october went for the recording of the horns section of ABC... den i needed to return a book to any library... but since sri was goin to esplanade, i tot, might as well go ere la... so on the train, we kinda saw tis guy and girl and the guy was dominating the whole conversation.. i onli noticed them because he was sayin that he was against her takin sports and listing out all the bad points of sports... and i was like, wat??!! such a wet blanket!!! so anyways, sri was helpin me out in tryin to find things to do the next day, and it got even more pressurising after i received a msg askin if i already tot of a place to go... heee... anyways, we suddenly realised tat the girl didn't even sputter a sentence... so we were jus lookin and gawffing at how agitated she was... sri was like, 'eh, agitated feet, agitated feet'.... so i look down and true enough, her toes was squashed together and about ready to jus spring out of her shoes... and she had a really bored look on her face... i mean, how does a guy talk from clementi(or where ever they boarded the train) till city hall(or where ever they are gonna alight) and not hear a single sentence from the other person... i mean, if he was tellin a story, den maybe itz possible la.. but he was changing topics all the time... anyways, so we met ian at city hall... den as we were walkin to the esplanade, we met shida sittin alone at the war memorial... so she joined us... returned ma book... den called dila to confirm about tomorrow since sms were not really effective when 2 ppl who dun noe where to go try to convince each other to choose the place... and sum started pokin sumone and after a few seconds, everyone was pokin each other and laughing at the reactions when we're poked... hahaha... sri was like tis violent person when she gets poked, me and ian will start screamin in a high pitched voice... den shida will go aggagagagagag... hahaha... we were like the only noise makin grp ere among all the couples... tink we disturbed them...awww... hahaha... den we started to ask each other lame jokes... it started wif shida askin me wats this - fish and later fishball... den i shared mine, and soon, sri joined... haha...so there we were sharing lame jokes wif each other... hahaha...went home after tat... called dila again, since we still haven't decided where to go yet... hahaha.. in the end, we decided on watching dvds at ma place... 13th October - wednesdae itz ma blood(y) cro's bdae and i forgot to wish him... sorrie bro.. i did remembered last nite... den i forgot... anyways, we met earlier since she didn't go for her trial test... went to kovan to rent dvds... in the end, we decided on dirty dancing 2 and the prince and me... oh yea. and i'm supposed to remind her never to rent from there again... she says it was too expensive... i mean, i dunno, i never rented dvds before... so yea... anyways, took the shutter bus to punggol plaza to get sum stuff at NTUC... turned out, we got a 2 litre vanilla ice-cream, hershey's choc syrup, A&W root beer, snickers and m&ms... got her to indulge on all those stuff... mua hahaha.. i feel so, GOOD!!! haha... felt really good... anyways, we den ordered canandian pizza... so yea, in between shows, we got root beer float, ice-cream wif choc syrup... den watched cruel intentions after the 2 shows... anyways, after the show, we did tarot readings... and well, i jus read her blog and it seems as if it jus happened.... or at least partially... sumhow, it happened!! oh well, remember girl, wat may come will haf to be the price of wat u must face... and in between, i was like, eh, todae is ma bro's bdae... i was like, i'll write him an email later after she leaves... but den i forgot.. jus like how i forgot to eat the fries which was next to me... okie, it was on ma bed... luckily i didnt toss and turn tat nite.. den in the morning, i opened ma eyes to fries in front of me and i touched it and it was cold and i was like, shite, itz yesterday's fries... and to tink ma mom reminded me not to forget to eat it... haha...

will it be okie if i try?

hmmm... sundae 10th October: went to ma theory lesson... jus realised tat the next test date is the 18th of November... wah liao le... tats like wat? one month from now?? haiz... anywayz, met dila b4 class and we went there... she was better... didn't limp tat much... we actually reached ere on time, wif wat her comin late as usual.. hee.. got tis instructor who i can safely say went thru a whole bunch of accidents... wif wat his scar on his rite cheek, a few scars on his arms and left hands bein dark brown... anyways, didn't get ma book chop since i had a month to sit in for the lesson again... and i was late for ma game... haha... so jus left... felt bad abt ditchin dila ere but she had better company... hee... anyways, to the game... quite demoralising to see u're the first guy ere when u came abt 10 minutes late as the game was supposed to start... haha... den after 5 minutes, u see another 3... haha... so tats like 4 players abt 15 min late... and u see the opponent already is standing by... anyways, didnt eat except for the lontong in the morning... so was tired easily... haiz... well, it wasn't sooo bad... only 4-1... one penalty, and to imagine it was after i saved the ball and cld haf gotten to it first b4 the opponent, ma defender jus had to swipe his leg... haiz... anyways, one was a goal in which the guy was a mile offside... the first was mine la... the 3rd was kinda mine since i was already out of the box but the ball didn't even touch the floor and he kept it up for very long... den manage to jus chip over ma leg.. haha... oh well, everythin else was okie.. den went for a drink at the marina south coffee shop.. den fadly sent me till tampines... den chatted wif dila a bit.... 11 october - mondae woke up late for ma recording... haha... woke up at 10.50 when i shld be changing ma clothes at tat time... well, lester was later... hahaa... so managed to record ian's guitars... and mido's vocals... since ian was sick... so ended early... den went to slack at SIM for a while wif sri, jimmy, amin, lester, ian and richard... haha... had a blast wif wat sri and her corny jokes...i chipped in ma peacock joke... haha... den went home...returned sum books and softwares to sengkang library... ma battery for ma jukebox went flat... so went home listiening to the roar of the train and bus... haha... am going to clean ma room next week... haha... maybe even tis thursday... got lots of things i need to clear up... haha...

sitting at the bus stop

6th October - Wednesday Went for ma drivin practical, gettin better... at least i tink i am... went for ma DVD test... okie la... can get abt 8 out of 10 la... haha... den did a lil of ma DVD project.. den went to the beach wif dila... took a while to know where we want to go... haiz, if tis keep goin on, gonna haf to plan a lil earlier... haha... as if i can... took a lil longer to decide where to eat even... haha... met her at the 196 berth and took it to parkway...we just sat on a peice of log tat was on the beach mostly... den took sum pic and wrote on the sand... den went to McD for sundae... i dunno, she was a lil lost for a while.... here and there... must be the beach tat brought a lot of memories for her... 7th October - Thursday Went for ma driving den went to complete ma DVD project... which i didnt.. but am really close to doin it... forgot wat else happened tat dae... hahaha 8th October - Friday went for the audio test... which i tink can pass... hahaha... den went home cos i forgot to bring the darn tape reel... so went home after class... quite borin ride when i realised i left ma mp3 player in skol... haiz.. den went back and tried to complete ma DVD project which i finally did... hahahah... was so proud of meself... haha... den ma grp managed to set up the whole studio by themselves wif out me... so proud of ma grp mates... went up and we started recodin, though a lil problem b4 tat... but managed to fix it... recorded endra and sri... so tats one song done... 5 to go... went to meet dila after ma recording... got myself an orange juice and blue berry pudding... yummy... gave her the ding dang... in case u ppl forgot wat it was, itz the old skol snack tat was 60 cents and ere's a toy in every box and the box is blue... den we got off from the bus and sumthin fell... after we(or rather i) picked the sumthin, we went on our way... hahaha... quite funny la to see us laughing by the road as we saw a rollin object roll from the steps to the road... and to the kerb... hahahahahha... chatted on the phone to discuss wat we're gonna do on sat after our final theory class... 9th October - Saturday went to wake her up, though i kena rejected a few times by her as i was callin her... den i kinda realised i was goin to be late... haha.. so took a cab from ma house and to hers and den we went for our class... arguing about which direction to take... haha... cldn't decide which one to take... haha... well, in the end, we reached the class at abt 15 minutes... i'll spare u guys the borin details of the class.... haha... thuogh the instructor was quite corny.. but in a good wayi enjoyed the lesson.. den after class we went to Mak's Place... ate chicken fried rice.... yum yum... haha... den after takin like abt 30-40 minutes to decide where to go after tat, we settled on pool at parkway... had fun... nuthin more to say... hahaha... read her blog la... tink she'll write in more detail abt the game... hahha... went to parkway to buy sum gummy... went home... gonna play soccer tomz... so on wif ma contacts... hopefully i'll be okie and the pitch gonna be great... hope, well, jus hope the game's gonna be great cos i hope a friend of mine can see me... haha... never had any of me fwens watch me play before...

& yet the flower lives on

I know i haven't been updating ma blog... but oh well, here goes a long one... as i try to wipe the dam mucus running from ma nose and the irritating sore throat tat i haf rite now... thursday, 30th September God knows what happened tat dae cos i sure as hell dun... except tat i went to skol early to pass the paper work or sumthin along that line... den went for specialist meeting... it was the insomnia 48 introduction... and i remembered tat i didnt sleep well, so must haf been doin ma journal and chattin wif dila... haha... so i was a lil crazy tat dae... choo B, forgot the name of the event for the second time and she jus said, err, err, the event and i shouted insomnia 48... and a few other comment which i forgot... i noe i was havin a hell of a time shouting ma comments... erm, den, i went to teach ma class for the last time... quite a sight la... ma most fun students, abrile(i still dunno how to spell his name) and keith, chyau shiaun, the only one who didnt miss a lesson, and nizam, the fastest learner in ma class... i guess these 4 ppl were the only ones i really cared about... i noe itz a bit biased la... haha...in the end, i had to perform too since ere was goin to be only 3 students performing. nizam was not gonna make it, so tats left wif keith, avbril and chyau shiaun... jiating was frettin abt not many ppl coming for the last dae of class... both keith and cs had practiced.. den ma slacker avbril, didnt really practice but he caught up quite fast... when class and meetin ended, i rushed off to see the set up of the insomnia 48... met zizi and helmi ere... den went home. 1st Octoer, Fridae went to class about 1 hour late like tat... went to skol to reprint ma final report... den all our paper work was done... Hi Club Closing Ceremony quite fun la... before tat, we went to practice first... den wore ma dumb yellow shirt which made me look like a cleaner... not tat itz mine mind u...so yea... went to perform... nuthin much goin on wif me... checked about since the food was ere yet... nuthin much to describe... den in the end keith and avbrile went to take a few photos and one wif them bashin me up... den rushed off to Insomnia 48... i jus realised i lurve these events, especially if i have my own freedom to move about unrestricted... the event was dammmmmmmm happening... i took loads of pictures, went about in the Art House... i was in love with the event itself... it was like my photography heaven, ere were babes, art models, artists, dazzling video and projections of really cool water in a saucer, air-con... snacks... haha... almost like in heaven too... helped out amin a bit but mostly went about watching the installations... met weil ling there... went to watch the reading to corpses, which was dam boring since i didn't understand wat she was reading, but i watched thru the whole video... i still loved the performance by jompet... an indonesian arts troupe... went home wif amin at about 2am... went on the night rider(budget)... got lost a bit in Sengkang... haha... den jus took a cab home and fell asleep when i reached home... 2 October, Sat went to work... was helping out with the POP station where we could make music videos for free... we jus choose a song and they will record it and will tape our actions... quite a fun filled event... i helped wif the sound crew... over all, the ppl were quite nice la... i jus realised that i could do sales... hahaha... i could be nice to everyone... if i wanted to... haha... anyways, when i was done, i went around to take more photos... esp of jompet again... haha... den meet liting and a few of her friends... oh yea, met raymond from TK too... the 2nd time i met them, they were at the children's exhibition and they made an island of soldier surrounding 4 figurines which had a german shepherd( i tink)... den took some pic... went to watched the final showcase by jompet for saturday and watched mysterious objects at noon, which had loads of twist in the story as ppl try to continue the story which was told previously... den after the show, viv called to say hi and tat she was ere too... so we kinda briefly met up and promised to meet again when Iron Pussy started... haha... so yea, we met up again in about half and hour to watch Iron Pussy.. it was a real blast watching the show... sooooooo corny... but it was great!!!

den walked around to wait for the mtv screening at 2.30am... so i tink i was jus walking around or sumthin, but i noe i did lots of stuff jus tat i didnt remember wat happened in between... watched all the video installations i guess... den amin had to leave early cos he was workin the next day too... so i continued my wanderings.... den at abt 2, i went down and sat with liting and aloysious... so watched the screenings at abt 2.30... watched till about 4... i had lots of laughs... real fun... den i lied on the floor of the screening room of joei apichatpong(i tink i got the spellin right) and watched his films till about 5... after watchin all, went to the readin of corpses room where they had really comfy seats and long seats which i slept in for about an hour or so... den went off at about 6am... to go home... realised that the first train is at 6.30... like wat the??? so yea, waited fro quite a while ere... den when i reached home, i was in a semi state of zombie where i was awake yet asleep... den went to sleep and only woke up at 6.30pm... though i tink i was awake in between cos i remembered either chattin or msgin ppl... den too lazy to go to the closin... so stayed at home...

4th October, Mondae
did ma final mix project... spent like till about 8.20pm before i was done... den went home... i jus realised tat i'm very lethargic the past few days... haha... slept early... haf a sore throat

5th OCtober, tuesdae
went for ma first drivin lesson in such a long time... only stalled the car like about 4 times... which only happened after the first time it stalled and then 2 more followed in quick succession... i've become quite a reckless driver... hahaa... the guy was tellin me tat i haf to break earlier... haha... went to skol after tat... did ma dvd authoring.. which shld haf been done earlier.. haiz... quite a progress... haha.. y didn't i start earlier i dun noe... haiz...