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GUYS, ere a gig at thumper every wednesday nite... 18 and above... dress formal cos the crowd will be formal...if u guys/gals wanna go... starts at abt 9pmand ere abts... check out the link...okie, so the link is not ere yet, but check out ma photos... and angelina's photos too... u cant really tell the diff unless itz in black and white... LAUNCH is THIS WEDNESDAY!!!

life is full but empty, long yet short

hmmmm, the last one was at the memorial.. so lets see... i dun really remembered wat happened... hmmm... been all rite... us havent done the laundry... haha... havent washed any of the clothes... but dun worry, i havent worn the same clothes twice...err, maybe i did, haha... oops... oh yea, did a recording on friday or sumthin like tat... or was it thurs?? bah, i cant remember... anyways, on friday, i did sumthin... i jus cant remember it... shite... den spent the whole of the sat at home i tink... jus cldn't get up from bed... woke up at only abt 1pm... well, in between, i jus cldn't get up... den on sundae, picked up duck and zak to go to ma house... she loved my dad's car... anyways, went to simpang bedok to eat... the darn indian guys took like abt 30 min to cook the dam pratas and murtabak... though itz more of they actually forgot abt it... haha... so anyways, den let duck drive my car home... so yea... she tried to study... while me and zak were messing up my room as we were unpacking stuff which were in my room and needed sorting... den he had to leave for his sis's bdae... so went to NTUC to get sum stuff and tried our(me &duck) hands at cooking... haha... got like minced meat to make meatballs... dne the cendawan... or oyster mushroom.. got a choc bar in which i still havent open till now... haha.. so yea, den went to try cookin and watch the match later on... s'pore and indon... cldn't get the tickets, tats like y we're stucked at home... so we had a few loud arguments in the kitchen since we both didnt really want to get hot oil on our bodies and stuff... haha... den had to call sri on how much water to put into the rice cooker... hahaha... so in the end, we did manage an edible food... haha... in between running to the tv and cooking, we did quite okie... haha... we had prawns, chicken, meat balls, fried rice... (forgot to fry the mushrooms)... den after the match, she drove herself home... and at least she was feelin a lil better... haha... practically smiling, nay, beaming after drivin ma dad's car... haha...

on monday, drove to skol since i was late for class... even tat, i went on the wrong way of the TPE... so ended up goin back to pasir ris instead of the CTE.. haiz... oh well, den met up wif liz for lunch...oh yea, we kinda screwed up lionel's disk too, but he's fine... no major documents in ere... so yeay... anyways, den sent her to the interchange... (thinking abt it yesterday, i cld haf actually sent her to outram... haiz... y didnt i tink abt it? cos my plan was to send her to the interchange and go back to skol to drive home... y didnt i jus drive her to the interchange? well, well, i haf my reasons... haha) anyways, den went back to skol... met sri along the way... den went sent her to expo and rudy to a bus stop... waited for ian... in between, i did a crazy turn into one of the terrace lanes... in which i didnt expected the speed... so went a bit too fast, since i didnt even bothered to brake... and sri 'lemah semangat' for a while... haha... oops...oh well...

yesterday jus did my napfa... freaking hell... got bronze cos of my pull up... anyways. the rest were fab... esp my broad jump... really proud to be able to do 250 cm when i usually am stuck in 225 range.... still had my speed, did at 9.81sec, lost a bit of flexibility(50cm only), lost a bit of stamina(11min plus)... haiz... den did only 3 pull up... haha... sheesh... den went back for dumpin the stuff into my hard disk... met ezaida after my mixing and went to the 8th floor before decided to go home together....den went back wif ezaida and leon... at least we can talk now.. haha... still feels strange but yet good...

tis is the 2nd part...
been loads of events been happening around my life... not in chronological(is tis the rite spelling??) order... in between my friend's suicide and goin out wif ppl, itz been a roller coaster ride...

she took her life on the 24th of Jan... the same day i went for my medicals... in between getting a pes D, since they dun really noe wats wrong wif my ECG reading... sum breaks in the pulse... hahaha... shite man... but it was ticklish, so i dunno if tat contributed to it... gettin my pes by mail... den was walkin ard town wif vick and met sri.... she told me abt it... so went for her memorial the next day... cldn't wake up on time to catch the bus... so drove and picked up rey/ray, amin, richard and sri... went to the crematorium... i dunno... it was quite a lifeless place... no spirits even... a big crowd was ere.. so den went to the temple at Bishan... ere, it was quite 'happening'... when vicki's ashes were abt to be praed and offered josssticks, a cloud of uneasiness came over me... it was huge... havent felt tat feelin before... jus a heavy feeling clouding over the whole area... was a bit unwell... but i regained my composure... farah was already freaked out.. haha... den we all went to the place where they kept the ashes...paid my last respects... den comforted christina since we were the last 3 to go out of the palce... me, her and liting... and just as we left, i walked past a huge 'thing'... havent felt these feelings in the morning or noon before... but i knew there was sumthin at the door as we left the place... so den we went back to skol to eat before goin to my house to do the project ere... den sri and me cooked fries, chicken and mushrooms... oh well, i got sick at night... havent vomitted since i was really young... like before primary 3... den suddenly i started vomitting... i dun tink itz the food since the rest were fine.. i guess i kinda connected the events tis morning to tat nite.. the first few tries at vomitting didnt result in anything except robbing me of air... i guess i kinda noticed i was gona suffocate if i continued so i stood up and woah, had to fight wif my body... to release the tenseness of my body... got sum air.. den started again, but tis time, like woah... everything came out... and i felt drained but good... left a bad after taste though.... haha... slept on the couch tat day... jus in case the air con made me want to vomit again... got like loads of calls and msges tat nite and the day... scaring the shite out of everyone.... den started callin everyone back... telling i was sick the day before... though when i read liz's msg, kinda made me okie again...

so called sri and she wasn't in the mood to do our project today, so we happily agreed to take a day break... haha... went out wif liz... played pool(thanks dila!! for the pool place...) and searched for a wedding band wif her(she's not gettin married, jus a pair of similiar rings)....wat am i doin goin out wif an attached gal u may ask? i dunno, she asked me out, so y not... not as if i got anythin to do anyway... met her fwen sharifah and another gal and tis gal i knew in hi club... sharifah looks cute wif the long hair and emo glasses... but dammm scary wif her tudung... haha... oops.. anyways, after at orchard, went to queensway to look for sum of her running stuff...she's goin to jog at east coast the next day... so yea...went to ikea first cos wanted to get their ice cream cone... haha... den sat down and ate... took sum pics (finally)... den went to queensway...she got a few stuff... tis auntie at one of the shop kept teasing us... she jus said we're not together... but NOT she's attached... hmmmm... haiz... keep focus on writing... keep focus... haha... anyways, den got a packet of chicken rice and sat down in front of tis optometrist's shop and ate... went home after that... i took a random bus after seein her off... ended wif passing by dahlia's old skol... den stopped at tiong bahru... went home i tink... oh wait, rented the passion...
and i wondered if itz supposed to portray his suffering or to create anti-semiticism... tough i argued tat it has been done to a whole bunch of other people before... to blame the people for their want to see violence, itz not really a good reason to hate since we would den be guilty of wantin to see violence... i dunno... i felt it didnt concentrate on wat he believed but rather on how people loved to see torture at that time... and to view violence... we jus see jesus being flogged for a good part of the movie... and the high priests mirrors the fanaticsm of sum priest now a days too... i guess it will not be bounded to just christians but humanism as a whole.. i dunno... anyways...

forgot wat happened in between... seems like nuthin happened between i last went out wif liz and now... hahaha... sheesh... yesterday, went to the technical workshop wif eka... den went to haf the DYL meeting... as of yesterday, i realised my week is almost busy... todae going to meet farah and whoever else is goin for the ntu thingy... den monday got to meet ivan to do DPM and den rehearsals at nite... tues is mug day...wednesday is the first thumper gig... itz at thumper!!! starts at 9pm... den the next day got my media law test... den friday got nuthing... at least for now... arrghhhhhhh... but also wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.... gonna go already ...

the weeks passed by like the cars on an expressway

itz been a hell long time since i updated... well, abt a lil more than a week, but still... i guess havent had much things to update... mt parents are gone... not as elated as many wld feel... when u get all the freedom in the world, not havin ur parents ard is quite a bummer... jus sent them off todae... i dunno... maybe itz weird, but i only felt tears welling for my mum... i dunno... i guess i cried cos my mom's goin... and here i am again, in tears... god knows y... but yea... so tats like one whole month wifout them... i guess i'm soooo used to me leavin them, like camps and such... never had they left me before... so yea, here i am, in my house, all alone, wif no one to disturb to... i find it almost impossible to describe the anguish i felt when my mum cried as she hugged goodbye... well, held her a lil longer than usual... my dad was in a rush to get into the bus though... haha... such extreme opposites, sumtimes i wonder how they ever stayed tat long together... and i thank god that i haf them as my parents... showing me 2 radically different persons to guide me thru my life... i guess my mum's side reflects me more... i'm lovin change, believe eye for an eye yet wif compassion(which makes me bullly-able).... yet i get much patience from my dad, learning his methods of dealing thru soft spoken-ness and such gentle-ness, getting my sense of humour(though i get my talent of laughing at everything thru my mum),my bargaining lessons from my mum(but my spending tendencies from my dad)... my sportyness from my dad and my need to say things out loud from my mum...

oh well, drove to skol todae after sending them... not a very nice sight... haha... my car's alright... jus my will to drive is going down... haha... plus the fuel that i need to pay... haha... had a haircut yesterday... now itz really short... oh well, kinda okie wif it... went for my recording todae.. it was okie la... except tat we spent 1 hour plus jus to figure out how to get logic to work again... since got a few tech prob which even Chin boo and lionel cant solve... den suddenly it works... i guess they must haf done bits and pieces, and we put the finishing touches to make it work... so dumpin the songs already... still dun like logic though... haha... so not user friendly... anyways, den went to beach road wif sri... she wanted to get a shirt stitched... den went to the memorial wif her and ian...

no runnin thoughts of anything yet...

the fragility of life

todae, i overcomed the nercousness of facing tis stern lookin tester... but will not argue, he passed me... haha... okie, so it was a bad pass but a pas never the less... and mostly itz abt safety points... like blindspot(though i did check the blindspot... so i didnt really turned my head and exaggerated the movement... but still... haha... wootz... no accident, no nuthin... yet... so went to skol... den slacked ere b4 had to meet the rest of the grp... as usual, they were late... hiaz... anyways, in the end, we didnt present... so it will be next week... so anyways, den went to eat chicken rice wif liz after class... sumwhere in bukit gombak... den had prata... haha... tats like the first time i ate 2 meals which is not sumone else's... haha... and todae, it dawned to me tat i'm jus gonna be friends... after wat my cousin showed me tat dae, it seems tat maybe i shld not read too much depth and follow... and to tink i kept tellin tis fwen of mine... 'but he's attached'... haha... so yea, anyways, she was kinda sick... she had a headache... well, wasnt lookin herself todae too... anyways, den went to esplanade to try and find a dvd... didn't find any good ones...

maybe tomz... den went home and abt 7plus, i drove the car for the first time... legally tat is... haha... must say, itz scarier wif auto, yet faster... yea la, the speed comes at an expense... so todae, i drove from al ansar mosque to haig road to my old house where we returned the pots, which we used durin the kenduri, back to my baby sitter... den drove home... drove on the TPE and all... must say, my hands not tat stable when drivin tis car... at least not yet... still tryin to get use to the really small steering wheel my dad fitted in and to brake earlier wif this car, or any other auto car, for tat matter... i dunno, when i'm behind the wheel, i'm torn between moving fast and the safety of the car... or myself for tat matter... i dunno... hope i dun lose tis wonder for life... noe how the senses seems all sharpened as u jump down from a bungee? itz abt the same thing, jus less scarier cos u can brake... hahaha.... arrghhh... still a bit shaky from drivin jus now... haha... so yeay...

anyways, watched the s'pore VS myanmar yest... haha... even though had my test in the morning tat day... so anyways, myanmar sure put up a fight... literally and methaphorically... i mean, they cld haf won but everyone had to fight... and lose 2 more players along the way jus b4 the penalty... so i mean, 8 V 11??? where's the fight ere??? haha... but anyways, s'pore won... yeay!!! and so it is... s'pore against indonesia, never tot i saw tis day... haha... whee... tomz early class... so gotta go ....

Here's my year's summary

hmmm, havent edited nor added any entry for god knows how long... haha... so here's bits and pieces of my life in between... tat happened in a space of less than a month, hell, itz jus abt 15 days...

in between goin to johore wif yanie and nezar, to playin monday soccer and grinning my life away every monday with sumone i shld not be grinning my life away with, to actually gettin to talk to my gal cousin,(who finally got home from her degree in cairo), i still find it hard to talk to the guys though(i personal flaw), to havin havin me a busy last few weeks of 2004, from all the gigs, meetings of DYL, outings wif the DYL, sending ed to airport, to my driving, to the christmas outings wif adli, the two farah-s, nina(i tink or was it lina???), to dayana, her cousins, her brother(whom i layan endlessly), to lin who listens to my endless rattle and banter and teasin and to seein a new side of orchard to havin school in december...

so lets start... or at least i hope i go the timeline right... haha...

i guess me and liza are closer... in a way... haha... but oh well...

soccer on mondays are a great workout... haha... havent scored tat many goals since quite a while... hahaha... big thanks to john for startin it and whoever who gets the ball every monday from dunno where... hahaha... den now tat we are startin the wednesday trip to johore, started since we were quite stressed wif digi effects... not tat stressed la but itz quite a bitch, especially the maskin of the movin apples... hahaha... and to mask stuff basically... lots of work for a few seconds work... hahaha, not to add the freezing room... spent like the whole nite there... went home at abt 1am... walked ard the place at abt 10pm where everythin is closed... haha... so jus went explorin the place... turning round abt 3 times... haha... den eatin seafood which amounts to abt 10 ringgit each, to buyin foodstuff as if it was really cheap(i mean it is la)... haha... basically we jus walked... to another trip tis wednesday i guess...

spent christmas eve wif adli and his fwens, farah, her cousin(lina or sumthin), and nana(eh, erm, okie, i'm not really sure of their names...)... hung ard wif amin first, den met adli and den met the rest... went to watch a performance at esplanade den ere was tis ballet performance... i was kinda enchanted by it... amin leftin between the ballet and the performance before tat... the rest of us went to eat at cavana, ere met zai, faiz, and , erm, sumone else i forgot who it was... arrghhhhh, my memory is failing me... sighs... anyways, den we went to the merlion to jus sit down... saw the crazy finger biting and no holds barred side of farah(which me and adli was the recipient)... i mean, who the hell asks to lend ur hand and den wants to bite it??!!! hahaha... got sprayed a bit by the sea and waves... thuogh itz kinda weird when ppl starts addressing themselves in the passive voice... haha... took a few pictures... together... den the other farah msged me askin if i wanted to go wif her and watched tis netball thingy organized by RIA... so i was like, wat the hell, dun haf anythin planned...

so yea, went wif her... so met her primary skol fwen... so took a few shots at the hoop near the court...den tis gal joined and i knew she must be used to coaching to a team(i mean like, which person who is not used to coachin says good job everytime i make a shot[which was everyone when i was in front of her...not bad okie... hahahaha)] den went to orchard, ate wif them at far east... den we met dayana at her house... bought back food and ate at her house... watched the brit awards... den went back to orchard... since farah had to work later, she left... so went wif dayana and her lil bro(shite, forgot his name, but itz a name common to english than malay... daniel or sumthin)... met her cousin noni(i tink tats how u spell it)... watched a silat performance... den met her other cousin who cldn't really make it for the performance... yati i tink... anyways, durin the performance, her bro sulked cos i didnt let him use the camera, since i 'had' to take the pictures of the performances... ahhaha... den we went to taka and he finally decided to end the cold war which he started... and got to use my camera... haha... must day, tat 6 or 7 or was it 5 year old has quite a steady hand... i mean(for those who knows shutter speed), he held a 1/25 shutter speed and it was still not shaky... for the uninitiated ones, itz abt 1/25 seconds... ur normal camera is abt 1/60, which is faster... so 1/25 is suspectible to the picture bein shaky... and my camera isn't tat light... so yea, he took quite a bit of pic wif all 3 of us bein the subject... den he left wif his mom and we continued our way... sat near the hilton and jus slacked ere for a while while takin pictures... den nonie was actin the ghost who was posin behind us... as we took a pic 2 by 2... haha...

den on new year's even, met lin first before we went to meet the DYl ppl later at 9... went to kino, well, wanted to go to queenstown library... but it was closed... haha... so like spent abt 1 hour plus at kino... she at the graphic design side and me at the photo side... which is perpendicular to each other anyway... den ate the japanese food, tokoyaki or sumthin like tat... the round shaped thingy which is filled wif a pathetic piece of meat... ate ice-cream after tat, den we walked in the drizzle to orchard emerald before takin the bus and eatin old chang kee at bugis... she listenin to me rattle abt myself... haha.. den met the guys... we ate at zam zam which only had mutton murtabak... and meeting tis attitude guy servin us... den walked to middle road to eat sum more... haha... stayed ere till abt 3 or 4 plus... saw nisa at that shop... den walked down to jus b4 lil india and sat at that coffee shop till abt 5 b4 ben had to go off to work... talked abt ghost stories at the middle road coffee shop... still remembered tat shop as the 3 dollar milo dinosaur shop... haha...

den the next day, my mum woked me up at abt 11 plus to go collect the food for the kenduri and i was like, shite, itz todae??? den went wif ma dad to collect the stuff at my baby sitter's place... she cooks these killer nasi dum... she got a shop under the KPMS building(or was it KPSM or... aiya, the one beside the temple and opp the mosque at geylang... itz called abab(or was it abha or sumthin) but itz the only nasi dum(okie, so i dunno how to spell it... the dum part)... den my cousins... must say, tis was the first time i saw my gal cousin... she's been away for too long... so lets start bein emo here... haha... well, used to be real close wif her when i was young... den we grew apart...s till remembered her and my cousin fightin over who gets my company... haha... usually, when i had sleep over at their place, itz between him in the day and her durin nite time... dunno, i guess itz cos i always wanted a sis tat i'm closer to her... den she left for her studies for a few years... den yesterday, i guess, suddenly we were closer... at least i dared to tell her abt my crushes... haha... so i guess we're closer... i still do not let out my feelings to strangers... or even most fwens... haha... she stayted since my mum wanted her to stay and help us... so i kept her company while ppl came and went... so yea, yeay, finally i opened up to my cousins... haha... well, she's not the outside kind of a person... so quite a culture shock for me la... haha... as in, need to readjust a lot more... speakin malay to her, unless i really need to talk faster or like i forget abt talkin in malay, which is quite often... haha... so yea, enjoyed her company... wheee....

todae, went for my final driving lesson... at the ungodly hour of 8.30... den it rained the whole dam day... hope it dun rain tomz... haiz, got my test in the morning... yeay, tomz is monday!!! must be the only few dam guy who likes monday... hahaha... hopefully i pass the bloody test... haha... *prays real hard* since i was in constant form, i hope i pass it... *crosses fingers and eyes... well, u get the pic..*

haha... in quite a good mood todae i see... hahaha... finished the dam power point presentation on rwanda... at last.... hope s'pore wins today... or at least draw la... or at least lose by one goal but the score is not more than5-4... haha... gonna watch it later... hopefully it dun rain heavily tomz morning... rain in the afternoon for all i care... haha... wheeeeeeeee... if i dun post by tomz, noe tat i haf failed the test... hahaha