itz been a while

the days went past like a blur whizz... i'm supposed to be in bed already la, but i'm still hanging here.. haiz, sorrie lionel if i'm late for ur class again... hee... todae... hmmmm, teaching the sign language class... quite fun la... we managed to choose a song... ma entry's been quite superficial.... wat happened and all... haha, i guess itz hard to go too deep cos, well, sumtimes, u jus dun want to go tat deep... or cant, for the lack of depth... sighs... i haf lost all depth and wonderin wat happens now tat u realised u've hit the bottom of ur heart and realised itz been empty after all these years? and sumhow, u try anf try to fill it up wif anythin... friens, hobbies, family, self? but deep inside you know these will only fill up a mere fraction of what it can fill.... what is the secret ingredient tat's missing, tat i dun seem to see when i see people smile for no reason while on their journey... a memory so powerful tat it could make you smile, a memory, good or bad, tat will make u smile.... i guess i've been that seeing tat smile for the past few days.... objects, makin me smile for no reason... maybe i'm still a softie inside the exo-skeleton... i mean, i see an old couple holdin hands and i cant help but grin... a guy on the train imitatin tis kid sittin beside me on the train and i smiled... maybe, sumhow, the days are not so bleak now, cos maybe sumhow, the silver lining has shone right thru... maybe... if nuthin's better, ma drivin IS!!! haha.... wootz... so proud of myself... haha