fallirnazation

was listening to ironic by alanis morsette before noticing tis malay gal in a miniskirt sittin in front of me. next to her was tis lil gal in madrasah uniform. so as she got up, ahem la...and tis lil gal held her hands and talked to her. talk abt ironic. it was beige in case u were wonderin. anyways, saw ah jia, amin from tk & shaika while setting up the show for library's opening... and yes, to all the turtles livin under the rock, the new library@ bugis is OPENED!!!!!!!!! which means, i can check out the arty & design gals... haha... oh well... today saw tis gal in tudung wif the tightest of jeans. won't say anythin since i haf fallen for one early tis year. my most dangerous go out wif friend. for she was attached. though i never did ask her out anymore after i knew she was attached. she did most of the askin out.

so today i tink i haf maybe fallen. never tot i cld smile at a sms sent... but i did. i mean, i did haf a slight crush on her before, but we never had any contact and so she fizzled. den now, well, i dunno. i guess i kinda gotten back the crush. sighs... havent asked her out though. not counting all our hectic schedule. but i dunno. sumtimes i dun like sms cos u're never sure whether wat she types is jus how she is or whether ere's sumthin more. goddammit... met a few ppl who are jus the way they are even if they sent out the wrong signals unintentionally... well, actually to count, itz jus 2 la... but still.

so i'm back to my irritatin self to gain attention. i disturb and be mean, in a nice way though... hehe...

i guess i jus cant forget her eyes... if i forgot everything else, i wld only remember the almond shaped eyes... or at least a beautifully made-up eyes...

anyways, u all SHOULD watch crash... if itz still showing...

y do we say one thing but mean the other?
y is it easier to do things which hurt other ppl?
y do we fall only to get up and fall again?
y do we rather wan to feel hurt and pain than stay in the comfort zone?
y do i fall for ppl i'll never be more than jus friends?
y do i always fall for attached ppl?


anyways, got a zen micro 20 gig for 369!!!!! wheeeeee.... now itz a really small player... and when they said micro, they really meant micro... haha...

and oh yea, i miss holding hands wif ya!!! even if we're jus friends...

and tat means if i start tryin to go out wif the gal i haf a crush on, i'll haf to stop though... hehe...

arrrghhhh... sumtimes itz weird... even as i took pics wif other(hot gals, well, actually it was jus one & she's quite tactile too) at baybeats, my mind keeps flyin to ya... and speaking of tat, i met another crush.. or rather dream gal(literally)... but i dunno y... i didnt want to talk to her. so we jus exchanged pleasantries... and after a few minutes, i said i had to go off even if i had no where to go. i dunno, i guess it was easier leavin her than talkin to her and pretending i dun feel anythin at all... even when all i wanted to do was stand there for as long as i could, i ran away. though she wore too much make up.

so now, i'm working like crazy... and i'm kinda broke again... i still owe a lot of ppl photos, i now haf a crush, got a job which makes me perspire like crazy, but meant travelling around singapore. actaully, not much la... lately been doin school shows in the east... and if i haf a choice to send my child to a primary school currently... it would be a tough fight between poi ching and loyang... oh man, the food was great and the teachers are hot... hehe... cant help myself, sumtimes the scenery is jus too nice to miss... but only a mini crush on tis teacher... hehe...

so, i guess i'm jus reliving my primary school days... was the food really tat bad?
i dunnno... still remembered i opened my unofficial stall sellin western food... which was basically fried and hotdogs and nuggets... it was my only business i ever did... sighs... which brings me to more depressing stories abt tis gal i had a crush on in primary 1. oh well... i guess it was easier tat we never talked.