bridget jones diary

how apt... there i was sittin all alone on the ocuch and i switched on the tv and presto... bridget jones diary started... hiaz... i guess i'm back to the sappy lovin me again... haha... i dunno... the show was really nice!!!! haha... havent cried while watching a movie in quite a while... haha... sheesh... me gettin all sappy and stuff... maklumla... havent seen the shining star in the sky for quite a while... so yea... arrghhh... i guess i'm in a way like bridget... haha.. cept tis is no fairytale... and i cant read the script before i decide if i want to be a part of it or not... i dunno... i jus feel sad... for the lack of a better word... or the lack of sumthin deeper... shall i go on??

okie... so i miss seeing the star at night.. i miss not being able to see the moon and hear the drone of buses on the road when i'm inside the bus... i miss hearing the silence of an empty building except the sounds of ppl laughing and volumes of water by my side... i miss sitting in an undersized train.. i miss seeing the sunshine... i miss the smell of a specific tropical(or at least Asian) fruit... i miss, well i miss loads of stuff... i guess i miss being able to sprout poems at a go now too... i dunno, wat lis(or was it liz) said... haha.. wld haf been nice if i cld actually remembered where i wrote and wat i wrote on tat day... if i do find it, i'm gonna do it lis... and thanks ya...

hey!!!!!!!!!!!! found it,,, it was ma last poem in tat book b4 i switched to another book.. and ma memory was correct... anyways, itz entitled green up, blue down... but tiz too obvious... so wont write it here.. hahahaha.. i lacked the codeds to write it here... y do we write in codes anyways?
i quote from tis poem(special yet not so special)
'Nah, I'm just seeking to the solace of non-risk'

and itz not at all me... jus plain direct... hahaha... maybe well see... anyways, guys out ere, do give support to ur gals only if they need it.. if they haf their own supprt, honour it... *grins to cikgu salmah* if not, later the cikgu will scold u... hahaha...

i dunno... my mood's lifted... not feelin too sad now... hahahaha... *grins* hiaz... wats into me? i still feel the current flowing... and no sri, i still did pay my electric bill and still have electricity...

anyways, i like the bridget jones diary... i tink i see to much of her in me... haha... the baffling idiot who's prone to eatin, dun really noe where to go, haf 1 gd fwen who's the opposite gender... aiyam in a nutshell, i feel for her.. though i'm only abt half her age... hahaha...

so yea, tomz gotta wake up early to do julius's project which i noe i cant finish and am not tat proud to haf ma name on it... haha... 3 days is crazy for ma standards and well, i guess i take pride in doin wat i noe i can do really well but cant... haha...