if a dream occurs when we don't hold back

well, i had a dream last night...

i was walking through the botanical garden entrance and it was a wedding set up... the entrance nearest to the hospital... i read the card, and i saw her name... and i smiled reading the card...

it wasn't very vivid, but oh well... since we're on the topic of marriage, a friend asked me once how many babies i would want... i mean, like hey, i didn't really tot of it before, but i tot really hard and then i blurted out i would want 2. so that the 1st child would not be lonely(i.e me) and preferable a boy and a girl... yea... so tat they can go through life helpin each other understand the other sex.. or at least try to... school and parents hardly teach you about the school of street-wise-ing...

oh yea, since sri's claimation to be on a diet, i wld love if ma gf is not... i mean, okie la, if she's like 90 kg or sumthin, den maybe la... haha... i mean, i eat like crazy and still i can't grow... i feel i'm too skinny... but i digress... haha... but if u ask me, i will never buy a weighing scale for the safe fact tat i do not have to feed the coal to the fiery question of "am i fat?"... i mean seriously, if i tot u were fat and i feel deeply disturbed, i'll tell ya.. but really, i can't be bothered with weights... i mean, sure i'll feel a bit intimidated around them, but i grew up around them... so to me, they're really cool, and especially generous... esp with wat i eat...

and i realise tat ppl wifout many close friends makes faithful(though maybe not fidel) lovers... i mean they haf so lil fwens tat (s)he will most likely devote most of her/his life to his/her other half... tats just my tots...

hmm... if i were to be a dreamer and do a list of the qualities that i know i would like the other half to have, this would be it(in no particular order) :

can speak decent english(since i can't talk decent malay to save my nuts)
is not living in the west
not over 300kg
eats a lot (like me)
doesn't make fun of me jus cos i dun 'makan pedas' (or eat spicy stuff)
shoulder-length hair(crap i'm a sucker for tat)
doesn't mind PDAs
doesn't mind my randomness and dun question why i do such random stuff (i mean i too can't explain why i do that... jus my impulses i guess)
if she likes to plan, fine, cos i dun plan for more than 2 days ahead... can't seem to do tat
at least haf a best friend who's a guy, so tat she won't be jealous tat i also enjoy the company of ma best fwen, who happens to be a girl... at least she will understand the company i enjoy
doesn't mind if i speak only english most of the time and not look down as if i'm so alienated from my culture.
dun care if i'm rich or not cos i'm NOT... i can only offer gifts of words and time and affection and the knowledge tat i'll always be there... tats as much as i can offer... i dislike expensive food, cos they usually offer very little... haha...
maybe 1 who dun smoke, i dun mind la if she does, as long as itz not in my direction.i dun haf anything against smokers, just the smoke... though i'm getting passive smoking practices from all u ppl who slack at sim all the time... hahaha
maybe tell the guys wat they really feel, since almost every guy is really dumb at guessing what they did wrong.. i mean, seriously, they(we) really are tat dumb... of course there are exceptions...like ma blood(y) bro...
 
know wat?? in the end.. the list don't really matter.. jus like how maths don't really matter when you begin to write poetry... i mean, the list is just my wish... but in reality, i just want to find someone who will like me and vice versa... so the list is really just a piece of white dots on the black surface of ma blog...
 
watever...